Hey there!
This might come off a little funny. After all that depression in the previous post...
MY MIDLIFE CRISIS HAS BEEN LARGELY RESOLVED.
That's right, I've gotten one of the greatest news in life today. It still feels surreal, and I actually cried tears of joy when I received it. Rather than being happy over the news, I was more thankful and glad that I was given the chance to tide through this challenging period. I'm just relieved that I don't have to play the role of the disappointing character in my family. And I'm just grateful for being given a chance once again to prove that I am worthy of something.
This coming Thursday I can strut across the stage and receive my well-deserving certificate, knowing that I have a direction to head to at the new corner of life. If you are not in my shoes, you won't understand what a relief it is to me.
I am someone led my determination. I need to know I have something to work hard on, so that I can perform well. Now that I know where life will take me, I will learn from my lesson and make sure I don't make myself go through this hell hole ever again.
Now that the biggest problem is solved, I'm starting to get worried about the other upcoming problems. The people that I will miss and worry about when I'm away at the other side of the country, and the people whom I will meet at this new environment.
I may not have great luck like some of the other people I know. But they say, the grass is always greener on the other side. Maybe I am lucky in the sense that I always seem to make it ashore no matter what deep shit I'm drowning in. I thank God for this.
Sorry for worrying you guys. I may not have explained myself, but I am thankful.
I will always remember how my Dad replied "YE YE!" when I told him the good news. (Yay Yay is what he meant btw)
And how my Mom hug me and told me she knew someone would see the whopping potential in me.
As well as my half laughter + half sobbing conversation with da boy on the phone.
This might come off a little funny. After all that depression in the previous post...
MY MIDLIFE CRISIS HAS BEEN LARGELY RESOLVED.
That's right, I've gotten one of the greatest news in life today. It still feels surreal, and I actually cried tears of joy when I received it. Rather than being happy over the news, I was more thankful and glad that I was given the chance to tide through this challenging period. I'm just relieved that I don't have to play the role of the disappointing character in my family. And I'm just grateful for being given a chance once again to prove that I am worthy of something.
This coming Thursday I can strut across the stage and receive my well-deserving certificate, knowing that I have a direction to head to at the new corner of life. If you are not in my shoes, you won't understand what a relief it is to me.
I am someone led my determination. I need to know I have something to work hard on, so that I can perform well. Now that I know where life will take me, I will learn from my lesson and make sure I don't make myself go through this hell hole ever again.
Now that the biggest problem is solved, I'm starting to get worried about the other upcoming problems. The people that I will miss and worry about when I'm away at the other side of the country, and the people whom I will meet at this new environment.
I may not have great luck like some of the other people I know. But they say, the grass is always greener on the other side. Maybe I am lucky in the sense that I always seem to make it ashore no matter what deep shit I'm drowning in. I thank God for this.
Sorry for worrying you guys. I may not have explained myself, but I am thankful.
I will always remember how my Dad replied "YE YE!" when I told him the good news. (Yay Yay is what he meant btw)
And how my Mom hug me and told me she knew someone would see the whopping potential in me.
As well as my half laughter + half sobbing conversation with da boy on the phone.
Met up with several old friends this week!
Familiarity makes me comfortable. (wide grin)
I will let the pictures do the talking!
Familiarity makes me comfortable. (wide grin)
I will let the pictures do the talking!
XOXO,
Iris
Iris